Okay, I admit it. Lately I’ve been a lazy ass.
I quit running months ago, I stopped going for yoga, I’ve stopped going for Prep and Tech classes, and I’ve done minimal stuff on my left side.
Basically, I’ve been on a sabbatical from strength and stamina training.
…And it’s been fabulous! LoL!
Instead, I’ve been taking it slightly easier by doing more dance classes: Beginner Pole Grooves, Inter 3, Inter Slap, and recently Advanced Pole Grooves.
I guess I got tired of struggling so hard with all the tricks I haven’t nailed yet, and with feeling physically beaten up and somewhat emotionally defeated. And I decided it was time to just kick back a little and have a bit more fun!
It’s not as if these classes aren’t challenging or that I don’t get tired (how I wish!) but it’s definitely been a lot more enjoyable. And yes, I know that this can’t go on forever or my progress will completely stall… but for now I’m quite happy to cruise for a bit.
But because my focus is now on dance, flow, and transitions, I’ve been pretty diligent about filming myself in class and it’s been quite interesting.
I’ve learned that the way I feel while I’m dancing and the way I look while I’m dancing are sometimes two very different things… Whenever I do the kick-ass rock routine ‘Enter Sandman’, I always feel like I’m going fast and giving it lots of energy, but on camera I still look slow and kinda lazy!
And during Advanced Pole Grooves this week, I was confidently grooving away to Usher’s “You Got It Bad”, (which I love!) and struggling to get through the combos as usual. But they didn’t actually look half as bad as I thought they would, whereas some of the dancing parts that I thought I had nailed looked awful!
Also, I’ve had lots more reminders that comparing myself to the girls in class that I admire is a dead-end game which leaves me feeling terribly wretched.
There are 3 or 4 advanced girls at the studio that I consider the top ones in terms of both tricks and dance, and beside them I look like a drunk chicken dancing with swans.
So yeah. Comparing with others, just don’t do it.
But if I just focus on how much better my videos are compared to a few terms ago, I feel great! Like how now, 3 out of 5 of my head rolls no longer look like I’m swatting flies with my forehead!
Ironically, my long-lost Candy and I had a fleeting reunion with each other in class the other day. I’d left it for dead after not doing any since I passed my assessment into Prep *Bad Chwenny!* but surprisingly enough it made a brief unexpected appearance.
Anyhow, the studio is shut for a week starting tomorrow for the Chinese New Year celebrations, so the plan is to do a little yoga and maybe a little pole practice.
Well, if I manage to find some time in between all the pineapple tart eating I’ll be doing, that is.
Happy Year of the Snake! 🙂