I think I’ve hit my first major pole plateau.
I’ve been faithfully going for regular classes but it just doesn’t seem like I’ve been
getting anywhere in terms of strength or stamina. Running’s been a chore, I haven’t been motivated to go for yoga at all, and last Saturday I even considered skipping out on all my classes and staying at home!
Also been feeling frustrated that I’m not on top of the choreo for cabaret pole and intermediate slap, since I missed a couple of classes and haven’t taken any videos of them, and so now I basically blank out halfway when I try to practice them.
At first I thought it was just a matter of not practicing enough, and not being able to put what I’ve learned to practice. But I also feel like I’m just stuck in a giant rut in general.
It’s my 4th time in inter 3, and in some ways I’m bored and cruising through because I can do pretty much all the tricks in the routine, but at the same time I get upset that they’re not as effortless and pretty as I wish they were. In fact, I feel the clumsiest and least confident doing this inter 3 routine compared to the last 2! Wtf?
That explains why I only have one stinking video of it though, usually by week 7 I’d have filmed about 6.
And then, there’s the biggest struggle of all: the issue about moving up to prep advanced!
I know that I’m going to feel like an overwhelmed beginner all over again when I finally get there, and I’m really not looking forward to that.
But even that’s still out of my reach right now because I’m still scrambling to get the candy with my shoes on so that I can pass the assessment before the new term begins (and all the prep classes are full) and it’s the biggest bloody pain in the ass!
Actually, it’s the biggest pain in my very sore right shoulder. Especially after Tuesday’s pole practice when I made about 10 combined attempts at the candy, with and without both shoes and success.
Thanks to Liz’s tip, I finally managed to clamber both feet above my head to do one last, very mangled candy into left leg hang with my shoes on before I was well and truly done for the night.
So it’s back for more
self-inflicted shoulder bashing Candy practice tonight for me. A bunch of us are supposed to film a group pole video for fun, but I might only be in the mood to watch them and sulk pitifully by myself!
Okay, end of rant!