Hello… it’s me… I was wondering… if after all this time you’d like to…
…still give a small hoot about a very old and neglected blog about pole dancing.
I know I barely do.
Which doesn’t mean that I don’t think about blogging anymore. Because I very often do, but mostly in the, ‘Wow, I sure wish I still had the time and energy to sit down and articulate these garbled thoughts into a blog post like I used to!”
Sadly, these days I do not.
I do admit, being a Leo and all, that I’ve missed the sound of my own (virtual) voice, and so here I am.
Initially, the plan was to write some grand farewell speech about closing down this blog, etc, etc.. but who am I kidding… I can’t even be bothered to do that! So instead, here’s a few things that made me happy this year: (just with regards to pole, of course)
1. It’s been a whole year teaching at The Brass Barre now! After teaching mostly Striptease Open and a lot of trial classes, I finally started teaching Beginners Pole, and recently also Striptease Intermediate too, which is a whole different level of crazy. (in the good way!) And I’m loving it. To think that at one point I almost felt like quitting…
2. I actually really enjoy choreographing my own routines to teach. Even though the process is a tiring one that involves a fair bit of struggling and swearing, it’s always worth it in the end. Especially that priceless moment when the students really get it and look amazing when they perform!
3) I’ve gotten so much better at counting! And counting while demonstrating and talking at the same time! Don’t laugh okay, but as a non-formerly-trained-dancer, counting never came naturally to me. I still dance mostly to the accents in the music rather than to the counts of the music. And I even choreograph that way too, adding in the counts only after I’ve finished choreographing the whole entire thing based on feeling the music alone. Oops, told you my secret there…
4) I’ve had the pleasure of teaching girls who told me in private that they had actually read my blog before they even started pole, and that reading about my pole journey was one of the reasons they picked up the courage to try it in the first place. You girls know who you are, and I want you to know that it makes me way happier than you probably think it does!
Now for the flip side to all that, aka reality, and the reasons why I just really can’t keep up with blogging anymore!
Since are only 24 hours in a day, a third of which I (don’t even) spend sleeping…. the reality is that between working at my day job which sometimes requires me to work weekend events, teaching at The Brass Barre anywhere from 3-5 times a week, (not including training, rehearsing, performing, and choreographing) maintaining my house, and spending time with my husband and cats… time and energy are truly precious commodities. I haven’t even done a yoga class in over a year!
Now despite all that, I somehow amazingly also managed to re-connect with my fashion roots after a very long time, and actually started sewing my own pole outfits lately!!!
(Maybe I’ll find the energy to blog about that in another 3-6 months’ time, but in a nutshell: Yes, I graduated from fashion school, and No, sewing your own pole outfits is really neither easy nor fun but I tend to enjoy things like that.)
Anyway, apparently it’s called having a hobby…. A concept which I’d long forgotten about, after having long forgotten my old hobby, which was blogging.
And now you hopefully see why!
Honestly, for the past few months I’ve been feeling that I have no time for myself and despite the fact that I actually do enjoy myself every day, I’ve also been falling sick way too often from a general lack of rest and simply doing too much stuff all the time.
But I’m not complaining! My life is great and I’m so super blessed to be able to work on all the things I love, all the time. I just need to maybe space them out a little more, so that I don’t need to be working all the time!
And with that, it’s time to finally stop procrastinating and mop the damned floor, which is how I managed to sit down and write this blog post in the first place. Productivity happens in funny ways, doesn’t it!